Change is needed for progress we all know that. And comfort is a very tricky thing- Once comfort sets in, we tend to stagnant or we become inert. any further changes seem harder and harder. the more comfortable you are in a certain situation the easier it is to stay put. I fear change yet i crave change with every pore of my tired being. I need change and once i have no change
i feel the need to climb onto higher grounds, to scale a higher mountain.(Ironically im flying at 40 000 feet)
But its not the physical height , we know that.
i feel the need to move forward and be free to dictate where im going to or propel myself to the places i need to be. ( ironically Im able to travel to as many places as i want to go)
But its not the physical places we know that nor is it the literal travel.
When im grounded ,i want to fly . my mind takes me to places i wanna be, i wander, wonder- lusting for physical change to happen to me; to be geographically in different places in as short a time as possible. When im flying i want to have some routine to guide my life, to have a constant goal to move towards to. I miss catching up with friends over and over again, i miss being able to constantly be involved in the slow progress of life. Yes i am a contradiction but i allow my higher self to warn me when the battery of zest runs low.
Change me to accept this ground or i need to change where i am now.